drown.

i try to breathe, i cant.

around me i see blue, it keeps getting darker.
something is pulling me down.
im trying to pull myself up trying to hold on to something, all i catch is water and it slips.

everything is so silent and i cant even hear myself.
but i hear the ocean talking, faintly.
it sounds familiar.

its my thoughts.
im drowning in my thoughts.
im trying to pull myself up but holding me down are weights chained to my legs.

im trying hard to pull myself up.
i look down at the weights and i see myself.
im holding myself down.

i need to cut off these weights to survive.
i look up and see myself trying to fight the weights, break free of the chains.

and she does it, she sets free of the weights.
now she floats and i drown.
im happy, im finally happy.
i let myself go and go down.

the last thought i remember is dead bodies float.